Rewrite your Story!

The stories of survival we tell ourselves from youth, that had been passed down from our parents/caregivers, they literally dictate our future. I had no idea about this key concept until I started to explore my own story, and the way it was affecting the unfolding of my life. 

I am the first Canadian generation in my family, they were immigrants on my Mothers side, and refugees from my fathers side, from Chile. Leaving the country for absolute political reasons, putting both sides of my family in trauma and oppression, both sides came here in mind blowing ways. The divine synchronization for both of my parents to have ended up in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada, to create myself and my siblings is such a neat thing for me to reflect upon. My grandparents and the family of my fathers side had been put into a 1 bedroom apartment downtown Winnipeg, with 4 children and 2 adults, not knowing a spec of english, nor qualifying for language classes. They made the best and started from scratch. Same with on my mothers side, however my grandfather being a general from the chilean military was fluent in 9 languages, English being one of them. However his story is truly inspiring to me, a story that talks about walking the andes mountains by foot to seek refuge. A huge reason why Sound of music was one of my favourite movies growing up, however that divine story is for another blog entry. My family on both sides endured this immense trauma and oppression. The amount of heavy, sticky, unserving patterns I’ve explored and transmuted to free myself, has humbled me beyond my years. As you can see, both sides started from nothing, complete scratch. My parents were so young when I was born, my father 16 and a half and my mother was 17, we all grew up together in one way or another. I know if my parents knew better, they would have done better during those times in the past. Their not knowing any better did contribute to who I am today thanks to everything, I can graciously blame them for so so many blessings. I know those who know my childhood are probably reading this questioning, like how tf can she even talk about her father so nicely, and I remember even myself when I was doing my inner work that was an inner shadow that would pop out and shame me for even forgiving him or letting him off, however that too has been transcended into the belief and knowing that we are all human, and imperfect and that we all come to understandings in different ways, through him I learnt many understandings, that have truly enriched my life. Now I am not trying to downplay, nor am I ashamed at the abuse I’ve endured and overcome, in fact the absolute opposite, thanks to those experiences I pity the fool who believes otherwise. Yes huge scars were left both physically and energetically on my being, however I am grateful, for how rich he made my experience and life on earth this time around. All that pain, made me find pleasure and I turned the sorrows he passed down into my own treasured gold. In one way or another it was how my journey was meant to go, in order to know and possess the knowledge that I share that has helped hundreds, and my hearts intentions to help millions one day. Nothing is ever done in vain, I forgive that man for all the lower heavy energies generated from my time and encounters with him. I love him and although he chooses not to associate with me, I am thankful and also feel it is the best boundary for now. Whether he knows this consciously or not, I feel he does that from the love that is left within his heart. A once big heart under all the untouched hurt that festers. If by any chance he ever comes across my website and this blog entry, I hope he knows how loved he is, how thankful I am for all the good memories he left me, all the beauty that I am and I am thankful for even the horrific ones, because those were my absolute catalysts to my own empowerment journey, so dad, although there is this conditioned belief that you had one job to teach me how I am supposed to be loved, and apparently you totally didn’t love me the way I consciously thought I needed you to love me as a father, however please know I do not lack, in fact the exact opposite occurred through trials and tribulations, it caused me to find understanding, and well dad I understand, and I send you so much love and faith that one day too you will search higher grounds to gain the compassionate understanding I hold in my heart today. I couldn’t imagine the horrors you have to live with, and the horrors you endured that were the main drivers to the ones you created, however I want you to know Dad, there is a way to heal and there is always a way to learn to love again, love healthily and in sovereignty…

My mother had been a big role model for me in always learning, and exploring one’s own curiosity’s, never allowing fear to hold her back from pursuing higher education and being a student at all times. I seen that woman level up her life from mere faith, in times I’ve witnessed other people suffering from such adversity and going a completely different path. She definitely taught me that perseverance toward what you want, holding the faith to move mountains and make it happen, and never being afraid to fail, and get back up again are key drivers in levelling up. So although I didn’t get to learn things, such as investing, money mindset, how to build credit, how to invest in myself and my future etc, they both taught me some great keys to creating my own abundance and led me to doors to finding this all out on my own!

So here I am today, January 14, 2021, and I can gratefully, with a full heart say, I am my own boss, I own a thriving business, that is only growing more, I have zero debt, and I am self sustainable and create my own abundance and help others do the same. Talk about levelling up, yes I just tooted my own horn! The wealth I have created is my divine birth right. I learned the laws of the universe and every experience has been a teacher. Money was something I was conditioned to believe was evil and bad, when money is just another means of energy exchange. With that knowledge, I have tested it and I have invested thousands of dollars in school, in myself and my own self development, over 8500$ in the last year alone, and I’ve also seen myself triple those investments everytime. I know what it means and how to invest in my future for my own sake and now my sons sake. I didn’t do all this magic on my own I do believe, interestingly enough, the more energetic work I had done one myself, it seemed to really begin freeing up some energetic highways of abundance for my entire my family lineage. It was almost as though I was working with my family on my mothers side more specifically, in a very intuitive way, I was doing the energetic work and started seeing huge shifts within my family wealth. My uncle was the first to really pave the wealthy way of abundance, then my stepdad who I call and everyone knows as my Papa, the man who literally saved me, he and my mama began creating wealth. At the same time my grandma’s channels opened. This is a woman who lived in poverty that is not known to first world countries such as Canada, she had earth floors before she meant my grandfather. Her and my grandfather are not together, and I’ve also witnessed the strength of my grandmother starting over many times, this time though she has also built her wealth through her own successful business that has generated even more wealthy frequencies into the family lineage. So now here I am, finally my turn in paving that physical way for my sisters and my babies. I used to tell this sad victim story about how I am the first canadian generation of my family, and I came from a mother on welfare and a father from the streets, I came from a broken unhealed family, that couldn’t even have get togethers because of the unhealed wounds and big ego’s. About how I had to carry the weight of my parents mistakes on my back, and how it would be such a struggle to come up, the only way was to find my ticket to easy fast and big money, that was my only way out of misery and financial oppression. Only to now learn that it has nothing to do with where you come from, your circumstances, how you were raised, where you were born, or the curses you may be told are imposed upon the family lineage, (yes I’ve been told this from a psychic, thank goddess I am a rebel connected to my heart so I always knew there is a way to heal and do better!) therefore what it all has to do with, is your mind, your mind generates energy, so it is the energy truly. Also your ability to learn and be open to learn and your hunger to find answers and connect the dots to make the picture how you fucking want it. There are endless ways to connect and heal, it truly starts within your energy. The key is your energy, and you can do so much work for your family lineage too. 

I can never express enough how grateful I am for my beautiful rich life, such a life to learn from, to build, to mold, to create, and it is all mine, it truly makes me excited to think. Learning I am enough to live, live the best life I can by embodying my highest self always. Those high vibrations I get to call in, cultivate and hone, all this work that opens up my huge abundant channels, allowing me support all those around me. Having me witness that every thing I want is all about aligning with the energy of that which is my desire, learning to let go of the rest, including my stories around it. Money isn’t evil, nor should it be the reason to dictate your values, morals, ethics, or what you do, as money is just a means to exchange energy, energy is every thing. Energy should be the reason behind all you do, or you miss the point of life. Now I align my energy, and money flows to me like I’m the money magnet, the more I honour my worth, the greater the amount of $$ flows to me. I know it started with that soul prodding, that soul work, exercising my will, surrendering, compassionately analyzing my stories, and then lovingly and powerfully rewriting them, from a space of divinity and a higher ground, in the field of plenty. So be aware of the stories you tell yourself, and it certainly isn’t about lying to yourself or anyone either about them. It is about getting very raw and honest, holding space for yourself, knowing the questions to ask yourself and answer them completely your self. It is being open to learning, becoming aware of the shadow, the weakness and then learning to shed light, and strengthen your self through the process. Transmuting, shape shifting, healing, over coming, levelling up or Ascending, rewriting the stories of the present, allowing for you to tap into the stories to come in the future. So be kind, and if you find yourself blaming anyone for your current life, check that ego, check that victim, you deserve better, and you can hold people accountable graciously, however it starts with you, taking that accountability, radically toward your own sovereignty, it seems a main key in creating flowing abundance, receiving and birthing all the blessings that truly are you birth right.